Yes, I feel all of the above emotions on a regular basis, and unfortunately I have no one to blame but myself. Let me just reiterate that I advise everyone to be diligent about keeping a clean and organized house, because if you ever need or want to move and you have not been on-top-of-things from the beginning this process is arduous, tedious, and down-right frustrating. We are trying to go through a drawer, closet, or cabinet each day and boy we have a lot of junk drawers. We are trying to organize our boxes so when we return we can start living an organized life out of the gate. We are also realizing (still) that we have too much stuff/junk altogether and so the purging continues.
In any case, I also feel scared, nervous, and sometimes depressed. It is overwhelming to pack a whole home and also have no idea what is coming up in the future and so I am at a point in my life where I will take sage advice wherever I can find it. This morning, I happened to find an applicable little ditty on my teabag; I just love getting teabags with inspirational quotes it is a good pick-me-up, along with the caffeine, in the morning. The wise teabag said, “Those who live in the past limit their future.”
I definitely feel as if this teabag was a harbinger of our impending trip. I must admit that not only do I tend to live in the past too much (what if we did this, what If we had done that), I also have the propensity to worry about the future. So, I have decided to try very hard to live in the present and just be thankful for all the good things that we have right now. Gratitude is my new attitude and my new frame of my mind is the present. Besides, I have so much to do right now that I don’t have time to drudge up the past or worry about my future anyway.
On another note, my husband has shaved his beard; also another positive portend that his own demons might be lifting – in relation to his previously discussed (in another blog) – regarding a possible midlife crisis.